I spent my fifteenth wanting love

that i see in the movies

found one but it’s complicated

in my sixteenth,

found people that love me

they’ll fight for me

fragile, insecure, but not lonely

i wish that i knew sooner

that everything will fall into place

nights i spent worrying

i wont be somebody

i still have my demons

trying to eat me alive

but even theresa

is flawed

— theresa, Kalysta

but she’s summer 69’

and im twenty twenty

the kind u wish u’d forget

the winter storm, the burning trees

i dont mean to compare myself

but i guess i did

cause you liked warm nights

but you’re not ready for my fire

— 2020, Kalysta

i know its not my fault

but i keep blame it on me

What breaks me most is

u made me question my worth

it’s the little things

that makes me go insane

although i know that life goes on

it’s not like u were never here

i shouldnt have wanted

validation through second chances

it’s the little things

that makes me go insane

— kalysta, i still don’t know why i blame myself, 2020.